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Redeemable

A Memoir of Darkness and Hope

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Born in Somerset in 1957 to itinerant Scottish parents, Erwin James lost his mother when he was seven. Shipped from home to home and subject to the whims of various caregivers after his father turned to alcohol and violence, he committed his first crime of breaking and entering when he was ten. His teenage and early adult years were spent drifting, and his petty crime turned increasingly violent, culminating in the terrible events for which he was jailed for life in 1984.
Entering prison at 27, James struggled to come to terms with the enormity of his crimes and a future without purpose or hope. Then he met Joan, a prison psychologist, who helped him to confront the painful truth of his past, and to understand how it had shaped him from such a young age. Her sessions transformed his life. Encouraged to read and to educate himself, over the next twenty years Erwin James would go on to receive a BA in History, and become a regular columnist for the Guardian.
Speaking to the very heart of the human condition, this is a book that offers no excuses - only the need to understand how we become who we become, and shows that no matter how far a person may fall, redemption is possible with the right kind of help. It is an important and timely memoir.
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    • Publisher's Weekly

      November 9, 2015
      In this dark memoir, columnist and author James describes the creation of a thug and murderer. After the death of his mother in a drunken car wreck, James suffered at the hands of a violent, alcoholic father, who dragged him across Great Britain only to abandon him with various relatives. James reacted to this unstable upbringing by engaging in petty theft, which led to stints in various institutions. Alcohol made him a pub bully and brought further encounters with the law. After murdering two people during robberies, he fled the country and joined the French Foreign Legion. When a former partner in crime confessed, James returned to face trial and 20 years in prison. The encouragement of a prison psychiatrist led him to the slow realization that he might still be redeemable, and he found an unlikely calling as a journalist and writer. James’s matter-of-fact tone saves his grim biography from melodrama: in his telling, an abused child becomes an abusive man in a way that seems almost inevitable. Most fascinating are his nomadic treks across Britain, sleeping rough for months at a time while still managing to hold down jobs. Oddly, James leaves two pivotal moments underexplored: his decision to return to England, and the moments he committed the murders. These absences leave the book incomplete, but they don’t detract from his depiction of the making of a criminal. Agent: Jim Monahan, David Godwin Associates.

    • Kirkus

      January 15, 2016
      A convicted murderer-turned-journalist tells the story of how he became a criminal but then underwent major personal rehabilitation while serving time in prison. Until he was 7, James (A Life Inside: A Prisoner's Notebook, 2005, etc.) lived in a poor but loving family. But then both his parents were involved in a tragic car accident that killed his mother and injured his father, Erwin Sr., who began drinking heavily as his body healed. The elder James took up with a series of women afterward; each time he did, the family experienced some stability. Inevitably, however, Erwin Sr. fell into a pattern of drunken violence, which he took out on each of his children's new mothers and also caused him to get arrested for public brawling. Meanwhile, the shy and ever anxious James ran wild and turned into a criminal. He began to rack up charges against him for increasingly more daring thefts and discovered the "lovely calm sense of peace" that alcohol seemed to offer, all while watching his home life deteriorate. When he was not staying with his father and his latest girlfriend, James was living either with other relatives or in homes for delinquent boys. By the time he entered his 20s, he had become a drifter and pub fighter who, over the course of his many muggings and robberies, killed two people. James escaped into the French Foreign Legion before turning himself in to the British police. Prison became his salvation: while incarcerated, he earned a university degree, began writing columns for the Guardian about prison life, and met a psychologist who helped him work through his traumatic childhood and adolescence. The author's unsparing descriptions of the abuse he suffered and then inflicted on others is often difficult to read, but his book offers hope that no matter the nature of a criminal's actions, "it [does] not define all of who that person [is]." A brutally candid but always humane memoir of redemption.

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